AHHHHHH.....

This week has been very crazy actually can i say that this whole month has been crazy and i just want to scream... the reason for this being i just made a trip back to san diego from kentucky with my mother, my father in-law, my son and my dog. To start off with the two weeks before we left kentucky i had been fighting with my father in-law to tell him that he had to come back out here and had to take it up with my husband when he got back that he didnt want to be here, so then i got him to finally pack his stuff and get ready for the trip. After all of that the first day of the trip we made it to joplin missouri and i get on the computer and come to find out that i had an email from my husband saying that he didnt have to come back that it would all be fine so from there i had to find a way to get my father in-law back to his house in kentucky so i looked at plane and bus tickets but they cost to much an the air port was also like 2 hours out of the way so it wasnt happening. so i called my friend and she lived about 5 hours a way and said that she would come and get him and take him back to his house (she was a life saver). so me and my mother made the rest of the trip home with it just her,me and my son and dog which was a much better trip. my mom spent two weeks here and then had to go back home (i wish she could have just stayed here). a few days before my mom left to go back home my friend that had taken my father in-law back home flew out because her husband was coming home and i had told them they were more than welcome to stay at my house. So to that point i have been ready to pull my hair out since he got here because my husband is still on deployment and they have been all lovey dovey and driving me up a wall with it. I didnt think that it would bother me that much but it is driving me abosolutly insane and i dont know how much longer i will be able to take it i dont want to go off on them i mean she is like my best friend and i dont want to hurt her feelings but i mean shouldnt she show so respect since my husband will be gone for a few more months i know that hers just got home but please...

well i guess that is enough for now i just had to vent a little before i pulled my hair out i mean isnt that what my blog is for, it is my blog and i can write about anything i want to

Have a goodnight from a Navy Wife who really wishes her husband was home!

What to do...

Well im not sure what to say about today other then the fact that im ready to go back to San Diego and have sometime away from my family. Dont get me wrong i love the time that i have spent at home but i just dont think i could ever move back home if i had to (mening living with my mom or my grandparents) it is just the simple fact that the whole time i have been home i have been told how to raise my son what to say to him and how to disipline him and if i go to leave to go some where it is where are you going who are you going to be with and what time are you going to be home. Sometimes all i want to say to them is "im 21, im married, i have my own kid, and i live on my own when im not here" i think i know how to take care of my self. I have been away from home now for a little over 2 years and it is like this every time i come home to visit i wish that i could get my own place when i come home but that would be pointless since i only come home for a few months while my husband is deployed and my grandparents love having me and my 3 year old son stay with them and i love the time that we do spend with them but it is the simple fact that sometimes they think we should only spend time with them or that is the way that they make me feel sometimes and sometimes i think that my son would rather spend all of his time with them.

Another thing that has drove me completly insane is the fact that on my moms days off she would rather spend the time with her boyfriend than her grandson all though she is driving back to california with us in like a week i still wish that some of her days off during the 3 months we have been home would have been spent with us. She will spend to weeks at my house but that is not the same or at least i dont think it is.

well i just had to get this all out there...and i need to go to bed my back is killing me and it is like 2:30 in the morning.

from a loving navy wife that is wishing that this deployment was over...

Long Day...

So today has been a long day...all our 3 year old son has wanted to do to day is throw a fit and not listen to mommy today so that made it really stressful on mommy and just made it one of those days where i just wish his daddy was home and mommy could have a break. On the other hand we did go with my mom today to have pictures done because we had never had any taken of just me, my mom, my sister, and my son so we had those done today and they look great i love them and cant wait for them to come in so i can decorate my house with them.

Well today has been one of my depressed days where i just wish i had my husband to talk to and i also think that is why im up at 2 in the morning instead of sleeping but oh well. I did get an email form my lovely husband today saying that he had an easy day and that he loved us and missed us and cant wait to come home to us which made me smile :) im so ready for this deployment to be over with, to me it seems like it is just draging on and on but he says that to him it seems like it is going by fast.

i cant wait to get back to san diego and see all of my friends again and make new ones in the new neighbor hood. well i guess it is time for me to try to go to sleep since little man here has been passed out for a few hours now

Goodnight form a loving navy wife who wishes this deployment was over....

Going Cazy

OK SO IM TRYING TO CHANGE MY BACKGROUND AND I CANT CAN ANYONE HELP ME BEFORE I GO INSANE....LOL I REALLY WANT TO KNOW HOW TO DO THIS SO PLEASE IF YOU CAN HELP ME LET ME KNOW....
THANKS
A LOVING NAVY WIFE WHO IS WISHING THIS DEPLOYMENT WAS OVER
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Deployment......

Well I haven't been writing as much as i wanted to this deployment but it has been a little crazy my 3 year old son was having a really hard time with his daddy being gone so that was making it a little hard for me to do anything. I was going a little crazy so i tried to figure out everything that i could do so i got him lots of books and DVDs about daddy being gone and i ordered him a daddy doll (he loves it, it goes every where with us) and i have ordered his blanket through the asymca with pics of him and his daddy on it. I don't know what else i can do for him but he is doing a lot better since he got the daddy doll. My husband has now been gone since November and to me it seems like it is dragging by i have been reading lots and lots of books and i have found yet another military wife book that i have fell in love with. The book is called "Confessions of a Military Wife" by Mollie Gross. At night when my son goes to sleep and i finally have some time to my self this book lifts my spirits with the funny things she has wrote not only was she a military spouse she has actually sit down and wrote a book that tells you how it is and not all the stuff that most people want you to hear she has let it all out...so to say.

I have been back home in Kentucky with family since the middle of December and will be heading back to our house in San Diego the middle of this month. While i have been home visiting i have had the time to hang out with some of our old friends from high school and i have to say i have missed some of them but others i haven't. I don't see why some people never grow up and get over all the drama that went on in high school... i mean in the time that i have been home people have started so much crap about me and my husband like "she has moved home because they split up and other crap like that and it drives me insane i mean come on we are over the age of 20 know grow up.

I have been emailing my husband a lot this deployment and i try to send him a package at least every other week. Another thing that i have found to be helping my son is letting him make things to put into the package for daddy and we make something almost everyday but sometimes he looses them before they make it to daddies box lol.

Well i guess that is enough for tonight it is bed time for me know

A Loving Navy Wife who wishes this deployment was over....

what a day

So these past few days have been kind of stressful and i feel like I'm going crazy. My son just turned 3 a few weeks ago and i think that the threes are worse than the twos. He has been clinging to his daddy now and i don't know how I'm going to handle him while daddy is gone I'm going to try to get him involved in as much as possible but there is not many things for a three year old to get involved in. I wish that i could find a job i like being a stay at home mom but we really need the money and it is not easy to find a job in this economy and defiantly not easy to find a job in San Diego.

i often sit a wonder if I'm ever going to find a job because it seems like you have to have experience every where and that no one will hire so that you can get the experience that you need which is kind of dumb if you ask me. i think that they only want the people that have all the experience so that they don't have to do there job and train some one new. i would love to have a job in the medical Field or maybe even doing journalism i took them both in high school and i love them both. I am taking classes in medical billing and coding but i don't seem to be getting any where with that and it just not for me but i will need it anyway to go for medical assisting so I'm going to go ahead and finish. i took two years of journalism and loved it i had so much fun.

So in the end i gusse that it all comes down to me just being tired of staying in the house all the time. Don't get me wrong i love being a stay at home mom but with us only having one car its not like we can get out of the house and do some thing because my husband has the car while he is at work. Yes we go out in the back yard and play with the dogs or play ball or we go to the park or go for a walk but its not the same as getting in the car and just getting away from the house.

well i gusse that is enough about me for today or maybe something else will happen and i will wirte more later you never know.

Just another day

Today is one of those days where i don't feel like doing anything and i have a ton of house work that needs to be done. I think I'm just still tried from the weekend we had our sons 3rd birthday party this weekend and everything that had to be done for the party just wore me out.

I cant believe that our deployment time is coming up so fast and im not ready for my husband to be gone again i miss having him with me all the time and i gusse this is why for the past couple of weeks i have had these days where i have no energy to get the house clean or even to do anything. I know that i need to get it togeather and get ready for this deployment but im just not ready. Is anyone ever ready for deployment time when it gets here i know that i never am.

I think it is time for me to find some thing to blog about how to prepare for a deployment since that time is coming so if you have any ideas let me know.