Well im not sure what to say about today other then the fact that im ready to go back to San Diego and have sometime away from my family. Dont get me wrong i love the time that i have spent at home but i just dont think i could ever move back home if i had to (mening living with my mom or my grandparents) it is just the simple fact that the whole time i have been home i have been told how to raise my son what to say to him and how to disipline him and if i go to leave to go some where it is where are you going who are you going to be with and what time are you going to be home. Sometimes all i want to say to them is "im 21, im married, i have my own kid, and i live on my own when im not here" i think i know how to take care of my self. I have been away from home now for a little over 2 years and it is like this every time i come home to visit i wish that i could get my own place when i come home but that would be pointless since i only come home for a few months while my husband is deployed and my grandparents love having me and my 3 year old son stay with them and i love the time that we do spend with them but it is the simple fact that sometimes they think we should only spend time with them or that is the way that they make me feel sometimes and sometimes i think that my son would rather spend all of his time with them.
Another thing that has drove me completly insane is the fact that on my moms days off she would rather spend the time with her boyfriend than her grandson all though she is driving back to california with us in like a week i still wish that some of her days off during the 3 months we have been home would have been spent with us. She will spend to weeks at my house but that is not the same or at least i dont think it is.
well i just had to get this all out there...and i need to go to bed my back is killing me and it is like 2:30 in the morning.
from a loving navy wife that is wishing that this deployment was over...
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